Death Of Love

It was always you whom I thought of.

In my mind you were the pillar of love.

Who knew you were the demon from above?

For this is the death of love.

The key thought to open the door to your heart;

Opened the gates of hell.

Like a headless corpse, for you; I fell.

Like the last breath of a dying dove,

This is the death of love.

The image of your beauty haunts me.

The sorrow and anguish won’t let me be.

In a demonic rage your very presence from afar,

slashes my heart and leaves a scar.

Slowly withering and dying like a red rose.

Sure as a buried corpse it will decompose.

As sure as bloodstains on a white glove.

For you, it is the death of my love.

Well...well...well! It's been awhile since I last wrote in here! The last couple of weeks have been cool. Nothing new or special in my life! Figures, huh? This weekend I went camping! Probably the best camping trip I've ever been on! Yeah, truly a great experience in the great outdoors! Personally, it’s just the fact that you’re in the middle of nowhere surrounded by woods in the darkness; under a blanket of stars and the only source of light you have is the moon! The moon is a beautiful sight to behold! My presence for the trip occurred at the last minute, probably a half-hour before departure! I went with Maria, Veronica, and Betty! I basically socialized with them! We arrived at about 11:00 Friday night, as soon as we got there we set up camp and explored a lil' bit! Found what we thought was a lake, but it turned out to be a huge grass field! Then later that night, we sat around the campfire until 3:00 in the morning and decided to hit the hay... Then Saturday after coming back from the beach, Veronica, Betty, and I went into the grass field and sat on a structure of rocks! It looked nice in the afternoon. Veronica and Betty were having fun creating echoes. Then night fell upon us and it was time to gather around the campfire once again! The four of us, Maria, Veronica, Betty, and I were having a deep conversation! Veronica, Betty, and I decided to spend the entire night awake since it was our last night there! Us and the rest of what was left of the group talked and joked around. Having deep discussions around a dying fire, yet I was trying to preserve the flame that kept us warm; until the sun started to rise! At this moment we were starting to feel spiritual and also started to feel grateful for the lives that we lead. That segment ended with me saying a prayer! At 5:30 in the morning we decided to pay a last visit to what we called "The Rocks" and watch the sunrise above the mountains and trees. The sunlight hit Veronica's face and that moment lit up my day! The time had come to pack up and hit the road! Unfortunately, having to leave a place that was serene and enchanting. All in all, it was an awesome experience that I will never forget!

Now, it is my last week before I return to school and honestly I look forward to it!...It is a new school year with new teachers and new subjects!...I look forward to what this new year brings into my life, whether it be in any aspect of my life; spiritually, socially, academically, romantically,etc. Maybe a new chance with an old love, if I deserve it and if Jehovah consents it!

That is all for now!...I will continue to "Reach For The Sky, cuz tomorrow may never come"!...

Well.....the "final entry" wasn't the final entry. That was just something stupid I was gong over in my mind. I just think about things too much. Oh well....

This week...has been pretty fun!....Monday nothing much just skool and I don't really remember!!...Tuesday, went to skool and tried to decide what to do with some friends form 1 to 4....but got nowhere!!....Then around six ended up going to the movies and saw "The Village". It really, really sucked!!...But all in all...i had fun!....Danny,Maria, Veronica, and uh me....Then Wednesday....skool, subway, and band practice!!....That was AWESOME!!....Oh wait Veronica wasnt werking at the time i went!....Oh well...no BIG DEAL!!!.....

Now....I'm really excited because my favorite band of all time is releasing their first cd in eight or nine years!!...On September 28th...."Sex,Love,and Rock'n'Roll" will be unleashed upon the world!!!....

"Sex,Love,and Rock'n'Roll:

Track List

1. Reach For The Sky
2. Highway 101
3. Don't Take Me For Granted
4. Footprints On My Ceiling
5. Nickels And Dimes
6. I Wasn't Born To Follow
7. Winners And Losers
8. Faithless
9. Live Before You Die
10. Angel's Wings

I'm also finding an interest in The Used!!....They're a good band!!....Nice,mellow songs!!....

Hmm....I've been wanting to make a final entry for awhile now and well here it goes!

I just don't kow what to say....all the people I hold dear. Seems to be drifting away from me. I spend so much time trying to be a nice and good friend....but then when I try to have conversations with them....they seem not to care for what I have to say!....I hold conversing with the people that I love in a high, exalted place...but it seems to me it does not matter to them.....I dunno it could be all in my head!!....They're just leading their own lives!!....They're just busy!!....I'm so confused right now!!....I have no idea what I'm feeling!!....I guess...."I Stand Alone"....and that I was "Cheating At Solitaire"..."Let The jukebox keep on playing"....but "Don't Think Twice, Its All Right"....I guess "You Win Again".....I just need some "Serenity". I wonder what would happen if I said "If You Leave Before Me" to you. I wonder what you would say.

"You Win Again"

The news is out
All over town
That you've been seen
Out running 'round
I guess that I
Should leave but then
I just can't go
You win again

This heart of mine
Could never say
What everybody knew but me
Just trusting you
Was my great sin
What can I do?
You win again

I'm sorry for
Your victim now
Cause soon his head
Like mine will bow
He'll give his love
But all in vain
And some they say
You win again

You have no heart
You have no shame
You take true love
And give the blame

I guess that I
should not complain
I love you still
You win again

I love you still
You win again
I love you still
You win again

"Don't Think Twice, Its All Right".

It ain't no use to sit and wonder why,
 If you don't know by now.
An' it ain't no use to sit and wonder why,                            It don't matter anyhow.
When your rooster crows at the break of dawn
Look out your window and I'll be gone,
You're the reason I'm trav'lin' on.
Don't think twice, it's all right.

It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, 
The light I've never known.
An' it ain't no use in turnin' on your light,
I'm on the dark side of the road.
 I wish there was somethin' you would do or say,
To make me change my mind and stay,
We never did  much talkin' anyway.
So don't think twice, it's all right.

It ain't no use in callin' out my name,
Like you never did before.
It ain't no use in callin' out my name,
I can't hear you any more.
I'm a-thinkin' and a-wond'rin' all the way down the road,
I once loved a woman, a charm I'm told.
I gave her my heart but she wanted my soul.
But don't think twice, it's all right.

I'm walkin' down that long, lonesome road,
Where I'm bound, I can't tell.
But goodbye's too good a word,
So I'll just say fare thee well I ain't sayin' you treated me unkind.
You could have done better but I don't mind.
You just kinda wasted my precious time.
But don't think twice, it's all right.

"If You Leave Before Me"

If you leave this world before me
A promise to you I shall keep
I won't fall in love with another one
Over your ashes I shall weep

If you leave before me
A promise I never will tell
About all the things we talked about
Our dark secrets I'll keep well

Chorus:
Aren't you glad, there ain't nobody listening?
Aren't you glad, that no one seems to care what we do?
Aren't you glad there ain't no one here to tell us what's right or wrong?
While we sit and we talk about nothing

What if there's no God in Heaven?
What if there's no God at all?
I promise these last years of loving you
Will be the best years of them all

This don't look like Heaven
I'm surrounded by fiery walls
For if I were to live here without you
That'd be the greatest sin of them all

Repeat Chorus

"Let The Jukebox Keep On Playing"

Oh, let that jukebox keep on playin'
Let that record roll around
Let my baby keep on sayin'
She's a lonesome gal in town
Let 'er know that I'll be waitin'
When my lonely days are through
Let the jukebox keep on playin'
Till I'm holdin' you

Oh, let those honky-tonkin' angels
Be the girls I never loved
Let 'em know its you I'm cravin'
It's you I'm dreamin' of
Let 'em know that I'll be waitin'
When my lonely days are through
let the jukebox keep on playin'
Till I'm holdin' you

Oh, let that jukebox keep on playin'
Let that record roll around
Let my baby keep on sayin'
She's a lonesome gal in town
Let 'er know that I'll be waitin'
When my lonely days are through
Let the jukebox keep on playin'
Till I'm holdin' you

Well...I'll be damnned I have not writtten in here in awhile!!.......Well....there was nothing interesting when I got back from New York!!.....But I'm glad to be back home and I'm glad to have seen the ugly faces that I have missed once again!....I brought back gifts for Xenia, Veronica, Robert, and Lauren!!.....I gave Veronica and Robert their gifts already....but Xenia has been in and out for awhile for I have not had the chance!!....Lauren on the other hand is in Mexico for the next three weeks or so!!......

This week has been pretty cool....I discovered the fun in riding a bike around town going from here to there!!....Wednesday was a pretty damn good day...               I went to go sign up for summer school but they told me to come back Thursday....then from Banning...I walked  to go see Veronica at werk at Subway and have lunch at 12:30but she was not werking at her usual time which was 11:00 to 4:00....Later I found out that she was werking later during the day from 4:00 to 11:00....damn why so late Vero?..........Ah...well....after that I went to Robert's house which is close by Subway and chilled and rode across town with him and the gang!!.....Then around 4:15 ....I went from Carson Park to Subway to go see Veronica at werk and have lunch/dinner!!.........Meatball Maranira....damn good..... : )........Then i had band practice and we finally got "Streets Of Rage" down....HELL YEAH...Me and Robert...we throw it down like Metallica and Social Distortion!!....Then Thursday....the same thing Banning to Subway.....Subway to Robert's house and then chilled!!..........That's it folks....till next time on "A Bastard's Life"...